God is so merciful and graceful that he teaches me things that I so much need to learn and to hear. He does not reveal his word to perfect vessels, but to incomplete people, just like me. And that is what he did again last time as I read 1 Samuel 13. It was a hole-in-one!
I read 1 Samuel 13. Saul has just been anointed king by Samuel and he is leading the nation of Israel. The philistines are approaching them and the battle is just around the corner.
Saul remained at Gilgal, and all the troops with him were quaking with fear. He waited seven days, the time set by Samuel; but Samuel did not come to Gilgal, and Saul’s men began to scatter. So he said, “Bring me the burnt offering and the fellowship offerings.” And Saul offered up the burnt offering.
To busy to wait for the one who called you!
I suffer together with Saul imagining his feelings. The enemy got closer and closer, his troops were full of fear, and he waited for Samuel to arrive. But, he did not! A leader leads, that is what Saul did. But, this was still wrong leadership. Instead of obeying the order and doing the task Samuel had given him, to wait, he took the task in his own hands and wanted to bring the victory to Israel based on his own leadership, and not the leadership ordained by God. As I read it it hit my heart as well. How often is it like this, that I do not have time to wait for the one who called me. There are simply to many blog posts to be written, to many diapers to be changed, an inbox packed with important emails waiting to be answered and in the middle of this I am supposed to stay calm and wait for God. No way!
I most of the time feel exactly as Saul. If I don’t do something myself at this moment, the ship will sink! And that is where the problem begins.
I get to busy saving the sinking ship, that I do not have time to listen and to wait for the one who called me, the one who keeps me in the palm of his hands and the one who loves me. What a pity, after all he is the one that has the solutions, the strength and everything I need. If Saul would have been waiting for Samuel and obeyed, his life would have gone in a different direction. Instead he walked another way, and he lost the kingdom and his life ended in a very different way